I never thought I’d be here. I’ve always had a ‘Type A’ personality. As a student, I was an over achiever and wanted to get 100s on my tests not for anyone else, but to prove to myself that I was a hard worker. Running Out of Gas This mentality quickly spiraled to dangerous lows. Read More …
I don’t know anybody who is as happy as I am tonight, as I sit down to google and try to find a psychiatrist in my neighborhood who can prescribe me psychiatric medication. I am just so elated to get the medication that can help me live my life better. So I google and open Read More …
Depression is crying all day, filling a daily bucket that must be emptied. Depression is checking for messages, waiting for phone calls that don’t come. Depression is tired. Too tired to care. Too tired to love. Too tired to live. Depression is blaming myself for falling and needing superhuman strength to pick myself up. Depression Read More …
Gripping thoughts, Haunt my mind.Causing me,To act in kind.Why are they so intrusive,Bossing me around.Forcing me to be immoral,Why in MY head are they found?I know I shouldn’t do it,But my mind tells me I must.And several times I give in,So in my strength I’m losing trust.I take each day at a time,Trying just Read More …
They say normal is a setting on the washing machine. My normal is a constant swing from feeling irritable, and then feeling energized and talkative, and then collapsing into depression again. A Sample Morning I’m feeling chipper, so I decide to bake up a storm for the upcoming Yom Tov (holiday). I pull out the Read More …
When Depression Overwhelms Me I was hearing loud noises and seeing bright lights swirling in different colors. I felt like an outsider. If it had been a movie, everyone else would have been in the center, and then the camera would have had to zoom out to its greatest extent just to see me: a Read More …
Today’s been, long. A 16-year-old in my community ended her life yesterday. It makes me sad for her. Sad for she had an entire life to live. In some sense jealous that she isn’t here. Guilt for wanting that. Grateful to be here. Sad for her family, for all their unanswered questions. For the world. Read More …
Happy on The Outside, Struggling on The Inside I had a wonderful, happy childhood: I loved school and camp, and was appreciated by the adults and friends around me. I had also experienced some challenging points in my childhood, but I never thought they had affected me. These experiences included my parents’ marital discord, emotional Read More …
Over the past several months, words and terms which were hardly ever used by the common person have all of a sudden made their way to the tips of our tongues. Quarantine, masks, and social distancing seem to have their place in just about every conversation. One newly popular word which has particularly caught my Read More …