” For how can I bear to see the evil which is happening to (me and) my people, and I can bear to see the eradication of my kindred?”
–Malka Esther from the Purim Megilla
Shalom,
My name is Hadassah Chavivah Zeltzer, A.K.A Kimmie Zeltzer. In my everyday life, I use my Hebrew name Hadassah Chavivah because when I was a little girl in Hebrew school, I was taught that my Hebrew name has great spiritual significance and that it could be a window into a person’s soul and character. It could also be a compass for genuinely actualizing a person’s true potential in this world.
Why I Share
I wanted my story to be told so that my life would have not been in vain, nor the lives of others, whether they are Jewish or not, who have experienced similar misfortunes. So I am writing you today as an act of making meaning out of my personal suffering, and the suffering of those who are the closest to me, as well as the many other men and women who have suffered similarly. The same systemic issues and intersectionality have kept all of us locked out from a reasonable chance to access the quality support which would afford us the humanity and dignity to build and create a meaningful and quality life.
Because of the personal traumas of my past and my overall disappointment and hurt with the “Mental Health System”, I became very defiant as a defense to protect myself so I would never be hurt again. I resided into a world of fantasy and leaned extremely heavily on the G-d I was taught about in Hebrew School, who would be there for me even if everyone else around me failed or abandoned me.
Now that I am an older person, I realize that even with G-d by my side, I still have to act in a way that will create my own miracle and do all I can in the physical l world. This will allow me to heal and reclaim my life. Then, if it is G-d’s will, I want to be in a position that will allow me the ability to support others with similar experiences.

Queen Esther’s Role
I started my post with a quote from one of my favorite Jewish heroines, Queen Esther. I only added the words “to me” to make it more personal to my story.
She is my role model and who I turned to for inspiration for my decision to share my story. I loved that she was willing to do the right thing, despite knowing that she was not guaranteed that her life would be spared.
I also believe the context of Queen Esther’s story is a true reflection of the experience I and so many men and women globally are still going through. We are barely living, existing at best.
The Need For Change
Even though I am doing my best to be brave and come out of hiding, I am earnestly terrified of what will really happen and become of me and the most vulnerable like me if things don’t change urgently.
My prayer and hope for this blog post’s impact is that G-d will use my writing and first-hand experience as a vehicle to open the floodgates of salvation for myself and all those who are suffering like me, hidden in plain sight or not so plain sight.


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