Author: anonymous

They say normal is a setting on the washing machine. My normal is a constant swing from feeling irritable, and then feeling energized and talkative, and then collapsing into depression again. A Sample Morning I’m feeling chipper, so I decide to bake up a storm for the upcoming Yom Tov (holiday). I pull out the Read More …

Happy on The Outside, Struggling on The Inside I had a wonderful, happy childhood: I loved school and camp, and was appreciated by the adults and friends around me. I had also experienced some challenging points in my childhood, but I never thought they had affected me. These experiences included my parents’ marital discord, emotional Read More …

Loosely definedDeeply disturbingIn my mindPerpetually hurting Furthermore, Psychoanalysis dissectsPicks at the psycheEntitles intellectConforming clinically But I, Vitally dissolveTerminology abusePositively dis-involveDiagnostic cues For the turmoil withinBreaks the brawniest warriorThe nightmares I spinDemeans the most despicable horror My Reality’s removeAttached to anotherThe visions gluedUnabating hover The Countless triggersPull the cordHaunting figuresTerror sword Therefore, Vernacular apathizesAggravates the soreMerely Read More …

My first eating-disordered thought that led to my relapse happened on Rosh Hashana last year. This spiraled into a full-blown relapse, and within months, I was whisked away to a treatment center to begin my healing process. I was in intensive therapy for the past eight months. The whole year of 5780 was dedicated towards Read More …

when you are a new arrival  to the mental health world, the road is long, the night is dark. it’s overwhelming:  you feel so alone,  and the pain is deep. nobody can ever understand  what you’re going through and surely, few have gone through what you have and even more-so, none have passed through this Read More …

Living in the world of trauma and mental illness, I have a special place in my heart for Tisha B’Av and the three weeks. I feel that this time of year is a time that Hashem feels my deep pain, the pain that I hold in my heart a whole year. And I try to Read More …

PART 1: Today, I had an anniversary. It wasn’t a wedding anniversary or friendaversary. It wasn’t one of the “six months to the day that I almost killed myself” or “one year to the day my therapist called Hatzalah to get me to the hospital” anniversaries either. Today, I was marking three years with no Read More …

Editor’s Note: There is more to the stigma of psychiatric medication than one may think: There are the stigmas of going to therapy, of being diagnosed with a mental disorder, and of being prescribed medication for said disorder. However, there is also the stigma geared towards physically taking psychiatric medication, and that is much more Read More …

The following piece was selected as one of the winners of this year’s Refuat Hanefesh Creative Expression Contest. Age group: High School. It has been lightly edited.    Message from the Author: This poem is about the impact a short message or real interaction can have and what looking behind the mask of another person can Read More …