Happy on The Outside, Struggling on The Inside I had a wonderful, happy childhood: I loved school and camp, and was appreciated by the adults and friends around me. I had also experienced some challenging points in my childhood, but I never thought they had affected me. These experiences included my parents’ marital discord, emotional Read More …
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Over the past several months, words and terms which were hardly ever used by the common person have all of a sudden made their way to the tips of our tongues. Quarantine, masks, and social distancing seem to have their place in just about every conversation. One newly popular word which has particularly caught my Read More …
Loosely definedDeeply disturbingIn my mindPerpetually hurting Furthermore, Psychoanalysis dissectsPicks at the psycheEntitles intellectConforming clinically But I, Vitally dissolveTerminology abusePositively dis-involveDiagnostic cues For the turmoil withinBreaks the brawniest warriorThe nightmares I spinDemeans the most despicable horror My Reality’s removeAttached to anotherThe visions gluedUnabating hover The Countless triggersPull the cordHaunting figuresTerror sword Therefore, Vernacular apathizesAggravates the soreMerely Read More …
My first eating-disordered thought that led to my relapse happened on Rosh Hashana last year. This spiraled into a full-blown relapse, and within months, I was whisked away to a treatment center to begin my healing process. I was in intensive therapy for the past eight months. The whole year of 5780 was dedicated towards Read More …
when you are a new arrival to the mental health world, the road is long, the night is dark. it’s overwhelming: you feel so alone, and the pain is deep. nobody can ever understand what you’re going through and surely, few have gone through what you have and even more-so, none have passed through this Read More …
Living in the world of trauma and mental illness, I have a special place in my heart for Tisha B’Av and the three weeks. I feel that this time of year is a time that Hashem feels my deep pain, the pain that I hold in my heart a whole year. And I try to Read More …
It deeply hurts. Time and time after time again, politicians, newscasters and everyday people associate violence with mental illness. This is both degrading and harmful. It perpetuates the stigmatic myth that those with mental illnesses are to be feared. For those like me, who have moved to manage mental illness to the point where it Read More …
Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade, Chester Bennington, and Robin Williams. Sharon Markovitz, Batsheva Stadlan, Chazz Petrella and recently Channing Smith. All of these wonderful people – the last three of which just teenagers – have sadly been lost to suicide. Those survived by them all made a decision that can almost be described as puzzling. They Read More …
PART 1: Today, I had an anniversary. It wasn’t a wedding anniversary or friendaversary. It wasn’t one of the “six months to the day that I almost killed myself” or “one year to the day my therapist called Hatzalah to get me to the hospital” anniversaries either. Today, I was marking three years with no Read More …