Creative Contest Winner: Poem About My Autistic Son For His Bar Mitzvah

The following poem was selected as one of the winners of this year’s Refuat Hanefesh Creative Expression Contest. Age group: College and Up. It has been lightly edited. 

 

 

My Son

 

My Son you came in this world giving us so much joy

 

Your future flashed before my eyes, my sweet little baby boy

 

You were such a quiet, passive baby, so easy at first

 

I thanked Hashem daily for this amazing child I had B”H (with the help of Gd) birthed

 

Then things started to not come so easily to you as they should be

 

Walking, talking and even responding to us these stages we just didn’t see

 

We tested you for hearing loss because we worried you might be deaf

 

The test ruled out many different disabilities until only one was left

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Gd made you a person with autism and for that fate I did weep

 

The pain and shock I struggled with and the deep sadness it did seep

 

But then your father said these words and it penetrated my heart – dear son

 

“Thank you Saadia for being my child; I wouldn’t trade you for anyone”

 

These words shook my world and made me truly realize

 

While we can’t choose our parents, our siblings or even the color of our eyes

 

I can choose to appreciate every gift that is given to me

 

My dear son Saadia you are very special it is as plain as day to see

 

You live in this autistic bubble that makes every second tough for you to deal

 

You are so wrapped up in this that we may forget that you do hear all and feel

 

You are a soul given to us to care for, you to have a purpose on this earth

 

While we are not privy to the reason, every soul down here has great worth

 

 

So now it is your Bar mitzvah; you will turn 13 today

 

Though it won’t look like others bar mitzvahs, our thanks to Hashem we will say

 

Thank you my son for the gift of teaching me to have deep faith that is unwavering

 

Thank you to all the angels that stand with you keeping you safe, you they are favoring

 

While you have no words to speak you are able to say amein

 

You try your hardest on Shabbos from the iPad you do refrain

 

You love to cuddle and be held even as you grow taller than me

 

You try to lead me to what you want showing me your world and what you hear and see

 

You work very hard to not be a burden or bring me much stress

 

Helping yourself to everything in my cupboard and making a huge mess

 

You try to be independent and sometimes it is really great

 

Other times I pray that your angels keep extra eyes and hands on you making sure you are safe

 

I am just a mother making the rules up as I go

 

Sometimes the answer is Yes; sometimes maybe and lots of times NO

 

 

While I don’t know what the future holds for you my dearest darling son

 

Thank you for being my Saadia, I wouldn’t trade you for anyone.

 

Happy Bar mitzvah my Saadia!

 

 

Love Mommy

 

 

 

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Milaine Grossbard

Milaine Grossbard loves finding creative ways to express to others what it’s like to raise two special needs children. She dislikes cooking but her hobbies are breakfast, lunch, and dinner. She uses humor to make people laugh.
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1 Comment on “Creative Contest Winner: Poem About My Autistic Son For His Bar Mitzvah

  1. Such a beautiful tribute to your son. It touched me deeply put tears in my eyes. I also am blessed with a autistic son. But I can’t express my feelings as well as you. He’s blessed to have a Mother like you

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